CD61-65

On February 1 (CD61), the nurse from the ob/gyn's office called.  She said the doctor wanted me to go for b/w.  I had the b/w done that day. They called with the results the next day.  She said my FSH, Estradiol and something else were normal but my TSH was abnormal, dangerously low.  I think it was .265. She said I need to go for another b/w (free t4).  I went that day.  The next day the nurse called with the results.  She said that test was normal and they would send the results to my endocronologist.  They said my G4 is good and T4 is normal.  I told the nurse that I was at CD63.  She talked with the ob/gyn.  She prescribed 400mg of Prometrium at night for 10 days. 

The Prometrium really kicks my butt.  As soon as I take it, I am out.  It just makes me exhausted.

Friday the 5th, my endocronologist's office called about the b/w they were sent.  He wants me to stop taking Synthroid on Sundays.  So now I am really confused.  Why would I stop taking my med if one of my thyroid tests were really low?

BTW, I stopped taking the Vitex on the 2nd and had already stopped the cough decongestant and progesterone cream on the 31st.  I will talk to my ob/gyn about taking them first.

CD57 to CD1

Last week my symptoms just continued to get worse: nauseau, diarrhea, exhaustion, irritability, cramps and pain in my stomach, back pain and loss of appetite.  On CD50, I tested again, of course BFN, so I called the ob/gyn.  I talked to the nurse.  She asked if I have had my thyroid checked recently.  I told her I had, just about a month ago.  She suggested that I try taking 1 Metformin in the AM and 1 Metformin in the PM for 1 week and see if that helps.

I have been taking the Metformin as the nurse suggested and I have noticed some difference.  The diarrhea and cramping are not as bothersome.  However, the nauseau, exhaustion, irritability (lack of patience), back pain and pains in my stomach have continued.  I called the nurse back this morning, I am on CD57 (and received another BFN this morning). She asked if I had tested resently.  I told her that I tested this morning.  She scheduled an appointment for me to come in to talk to the ob/gyn, but it's not until the 23rd.  She said that the ob/gyn won't be back in the office until Monday and she would talk to her then and called me back.

Of course since then I have started my period.  I am thankful, as much as you can be, when you are cramping, in pain and still not feeling well. 

I have been so tired this last month or 2.  It is just so difficult to even get out of bed.  I have to force myself to just get DD breakfast.  I feel horrible that I am not able to do the things I used to do with her.  I can't even get crafts or things together for her to do while I am laying in bed.  I hate to say it, but a lot of times, all I can do is turn on PBS.  I hate that I am not able to work on the alphabet or other educational things with her.  I think the guilt from that and the exhaustion, pain and frustration from PCOS have me defeated.  All I can think about is how I am a terrible mom because I can't do more things with DD. Before I thought it might be silly to send her to preschool, but now I am starting to think it is the best thing for her.  I just feel I am not doing right by her.  I think she is bored being here with me. Hell, I am bored being here with myself.