Last week my symptoms just continued to get worse: nauseau, diarrhea, exhaustion, irritability, cramps and pain in my stomach, back pain and loss of appetite. On CD50, I tested again, of course BFN, so I called the ob/gyn. I talked to the nurse. She asked if I have had my thyroid checked recently. I told her I had, just about a month ago. She suggested that I try taking 1 Metformin in the AM and 1 Metformin in the PM for 1 week and see if that helps.
I have been taking the Metformin as the nurse suggested and I have noticed some difference. The diarrhea and cramping are not as bothersome. However, the nauseau, exhaustion, irritability (lack of patience), back pain and pains in my stomach have continued. I called the nurse back this morning, I am on CD57 (and received another BFN this morning). She asked if I had tested resently. I told her that I tested this morning. She scheduled an appointment for me to come in to talk to the ob/gyn, but it's not until the 23rd. She said that the ob/gyn won't be back in the office until Monday and she would talk to her then and called me back.
Of course since then I have started my period. I am thankful, as much as you can be, when you are cramping, in pain and still not feeling well.
I have been so tired this last month or 2. It is just so difficult to even get out of bed. I have to force myself to just get DD breakfast. I feel horrible that I am not able to do the things I used to do with her. I can't even get crafts or things together for her to do while I am laying in bed. I hate to say it, but a lot of times, all I can do is turn on PBS. I hate that I am not able to work on the alphabet or other educational things with her. I think the guilt from that and the exhaustion, pain and frustration from PCOS have me defeated. All I can think about is how I am a terrible mom because I can't do more things with DD. Before I thought it might be silly to send her to preschool, but now I am starting to think it is the best thing for her. I just feel I am not doing right by her. I think she is bored being here with me. Hell, I am bored being here with myself.