Sock It To Me: Winter 2010

I joined Sock It To Me, an awesome sock exchange that Kymberli at I'm A Smart One started.  The SITM: Winter 2010 Exchange is my first one ever.  Here is what Kymberli has to say about this cool exchange:

It's The Great Sock-It-to-Me Exchange. The warmth you feel from your bloggy support is a warm and fuzzy pair of snuggly socks. Take the support with you for a trip to the stirrups. Wear them when you're chasing around your battle-won little person. Put them on when you have something to celebrate or when you need a hug. Wear them as a physical reminder of all the people inside your computer who you know care for and are thinking of you.

Here's one of the "rules":
The week of Sock It to Me Week. Post a picture of your socks (worn or not worn) with a link back to the blogger who sent them to you. The topic of the SITM posts will change each time.* For SITM Winter 2010, reflect on ways which the community supported you in 2009 (or if you're new to blogging, ways in which you needed support in 2009) and also look ahead to how you'll give and continue to receive support in 2010. SITM is a week for warm and fuzzies. Like ummm...the socks.

I had the pleasure of sending a pair of socks to Kymberli and from that I have really gotten to know her.  I really appreciate the support she has shown me since joining this exchange. 

I received a pack of 3 socks from Renee.  I am not including a link to her blog because she is not a blogger.  I actually sent Kymberli an email to ask her who sent me the socks because Renee kept it a secret when she sent the package. 


The ones in the second picture are the pair I wore to my u/s this week.  It was really helpful to wear them because every time (even throughout the rest of the day) I looked at them I felt supported.

I am not new to the blogging world.  I actually have 4 blogs.  This blog is new.  I am newly (as of July 2009) diagnosed with PCOS and LPD (in August 2009).  I really felt I needed a place to share that part of my life.  Not many people know of my diagnoses or that we are TTC.  I know to some that may sound silly, but the important people know about it (my DH, my mom, some of my family and friends - know about the diagnoses).  I am not comfortable sharing this information with everyone because there are some really unsupportive people in our lives (and would use the information against us / me in anyway they could).  I have not shared with anyone, outside of you all that read this blog (and of course my DH) that we are TTC.  I just am not ready to share that struggle with anyone except you all.  It's just too painful.  Since my diagnoses, I have felt very unsupported (which is why I needed to start a blog just for that part of my life).  My DH, mom and friends don't understand it.  They know of it, but don't know how to support me with it.  I have tried explaining things to them, but they just don't get it.  My DH is coming around and has told me he is scared.  He is afraid of this and what it has done to me and to the possibility of future children. 

I really just need a soft place to fall.  A place to be accepted and not judged.  A place to be able to put it all out there and still be loved.  I really need people to genuinely care about me and what is going on in my life.  I wish I had family and friends that would offer help and support with my DD or with the house or with just lending an ear or with just crying with me over everything or just getting mad as hell with me about things. I don't want people feeling sorry for me, not one bit. 

I am so glad for the women that I have met since starting this blog and joining some online PCOS support groups. I appreciate their support and continue to need it.  I will continue to provide support and try my hardest to make it a priority everyday to check it on my girls.  I hope that all of our efforts of TTC will be fulfilled this year.