I used the OPK on Sunday and Monday and had no surge, so I called the ARS' office to schedule an u/s. I was a little (OK, quite) disheartened that I hadn't received a surge. I went to the u/s yesterday, which was CD16, and got great news! While the tech was doing the vaginal u/s, she first checked my lining. She said that it was looking good and was at a 10. She said they like it to be 8 and above. She then checked my uterus and checked for any fluid (which could have been left over indicating we missed my ovulation). Thankfully there was no fluid. She viewed my right ovary and found a lot of small follicles. Then viewed my left ovary and found the Baby Maker (as she referred to it). She measured the biggest follicle and it was at 21 1/2! Anything 18 and above is good. I was so happy and excited when she told me how big it was. She said that one is going to be your Baby Maker. You can get dressed and go up to the front. As I got off the u/s table and started to get dressed, I got so anxious, excited, happy, emotional, nervous, scared, etc that I started to cry. I got a hold of myself, but was shaking a little. I was so scared going into that appointment that things weren't going to progress. I was feeling something going on inside, but didn't know what. I guess I was feeling my body getting ready to ovulate! I saw the nurse and she said that basically now they give me the Ovidrel injection, DH and I should get together that night or the next morning, come in on Wednesday for a post coital test, post ovulation u/s on Friday and progesterone b/w next Tuesday. She gave me the Ovidrel injection in my right upper arm. It stung a bit. Needles are just unpleasant going into the body (at least for me). I scheduled my appointments and left.
Later, I was thinking that no matter what happens I thank God for getting me this far. Knowing that my body (with the help of medication) has gotten to this point is somewhat of a relief to me. Don't get me wrong, my ultimate joy will be when I hear those beautiful words: "you're pregnant!" and then of course when we hear our beautiful baby make his/her first cries / sounds!
I am pretty nervous about the post coital test this afternoon. I hope that everything is good and doing what they are supposed to be doing. As stupid as this may sound, I just want to know when the ARS / nurse / u/s tech can tell us if we are pregnant. I am not sure how much longer we have to wait to find out. Then I think about twins / multiples. Twins run in both of our families. In my family both of my parents have twins in their family. Then the Clomid, Gonal F and Ovidrel run the "risk" of multiples. So does all of that multiply our chances of having multiples?!? First I think, well I only have one follicle that is big enough to produce a mature egg, but then I am reminded that the egg can split to form twins, too.
If you can't tell, I am a very impatient person. I try to be more patient. I try to be patient and listen to what God is trying to tell me or teach me during the waiting, but it's hard for me. I feel like I have been patient long enough. Yes, I understand that to some people TTC for 8 or 9 months is not very long. I know that many have been trying for years and years. I can't imagine that. I don't know what I would do or will do if that is how long our journey is. I know that things are in God's hands. I have to put my trust in Him and know that His plan is what is best for me.
If you have a chance to say a little prayer for me and that the tests in the upcoming days all come up good and we get a positive result soon, I would really appreciate it.
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